A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Miss deka and I are preparing for a major change at home. We’re getting rid of the castle because frankly, it’s just too damned big. We’ve have a comfortable amount of stuff in it, and it feels empty. A good friend of Miss deka’s is building a house for us. I’ll be doing the scripts [...]
Miss deka took another sub under her wing today (well I guess last night). Ember is quite new to SL and completely new to the BDSM lifestyle. Miss deka has taken her in primarily to afford her protection from the many predators and players out there that would take her, chew her up and spit [...]
Meant to post something every evening for the last several evenings but kept not doing it… Mostly because I’ve been having way too much fun (modulo a RL crisis on Saturday). Miss deka has decided that it is time to up the ante a bit, more bondage, more extremes in what I’m wearing, more on [...]
In newspaper terms, I’m totally burying the lead, and doing it on purpose <grin>. The day started nicely enough, I did some troubleshooting on a bug report, found the bug, killed the bug, posted an update. I was up really early since I went to bed quite early last night. Later at the Forum, a [...]
—– Friday August 14, 23:32 SLT —– No sign of Miss deka, her alt or Damon still. I spent the evening with Tara, Re, Parser and later with ccia and DaddyDenial. We went to the club where Wednesdai used to dance, Ally B’s. It was the only BDSM friendly dance club any of us could [...]
Forgot one interesting tidbit through the weekend, it’ll take a moment to set it up… Ponies are enormous lag generators. We also tend to have many if not all attachment points occupied with gear as well as several HUDs loaded. One thing I’m trying to do is to reduce the clutter on my screen by [...]
I’m getting myself prepared for an interview that is going to have a profound effect on where my SecondLife proceeds for the foreseeable future. As I mentioned previously, I’ve applied to join the Frilly Filly Farm. Before that can happen, I need to meet with Button Wright, the Stable Mistress. To say that I’m nervous [...]
I was talking to a good friend yesterday and rapidly fell into the beginnings of a pity party. The reality of what has happened the last few days is really starting to sink in. I’ve got some great friends who are doing a wonderful job of not letting me brood, but I’m really beginning to [...]
Today is the first day of the rest of my SecondLife… I wish that statement filled me with hope and expectation, right now it fills me with ennui. I managed to get some sleep last night, let’s see what today brings. It just has to be better than yesterday. I often wonder as I’m writing [...]
It is done. I offered to return Miss’s collar and she accepted. I am again unowned. I won’t say that I am free because that’s not how it feels. Not even close. I will say that for right now it is the right thing to do for both of us. She needs to not be [...]
What do you do when your escape from the drama of RL becomes so full of drama that you need to escape from it? I lost a good friend today. Well, I think I actually lost him as a friend a while ago, I just didn’t know or accept it yet. I lost my home [...]
It’s two weeks since my last posting, and a whole bunch has happened in that time. I spent a week as a ponyboy, a week as a tiger, and RL has been conspiring to make me crazy. I just now realized how negative the tenor of this blog has been, and how little I have [...]
The likely best subtitle is “No, I’m really not” I’ll be frank, I’ve had a rough couple of days. I’ll start with straight reportage, move to how it affected me, and conclude with the happy ending. Yes, gentle reader, there is a happy ending to this episode. Okay, so what the hell has been going [...]
No sooner it seems did Samie take me in hand, than Miss Wednesdai made it back online. It was actually at the end of a pretty rough day for me, so I was incredibly glad to see her. Samie and her sister are quite the pair together, we all managed to get ourselves into a [...]
There are a couple of pieces of context required for this posting. The first is that Miss Wednesdai has been off-line for the better part of a week and is unlikely to be back for more than a week more. The second piece is that Walter has acquired another sim and is moving Miss and [...]
Since I last posted, some fun has been had. I spent about a day crammed into a little teeny cage: Miss took away “Stand” so I was stuck until she released me. She also decided that I could stay in my arm binder for a while. I’d locked it on earlier not realising that once [...]
Miss frightened me a little yesterday, in a good way I think. We were visiting with our neighbors and she suddenly announced that I would be spending some time here. It stopped me in my tracks. Was I in trouble? Was she upset with me? What did I do?! There was steel in her voice [...]
I just spent a little time reviewing everything I’ve written here. I started doing some minor edits as well, but stopped. I really need to be more careful with my spelling A few themes came up for me, it seems like a good time to explore them and see where it goes. First off, am [...]
Sometimes it’s really not clear what you should do… One of our best friends in SL, Walter has been coaching Miss in being a Domme. He also from time to time puts her through her paces . Before switching, Miss was a sub for quite some time. Switching in BDSM is not unusual in RL [...]
I’ve always enjoyed a good vampire movie or book. I’m working my way through Kim Harrison’s books on audiobook and very much enjoying them. I was surprised when Miss asked me if I minded if she became a vampire. I had to smile at that, sometimes Miss is just a little too solicitous. Naturally I [...]
From the very beginning of my SecondLife, I’ve been clear that in fairness to my RL wife I must not have sex in SL. I’ve read both sides of the argument, SecondLife is completely disjoint from RL and that it’s not the physical act, rather it’s the emotional element that’s the problem. Yet I’m falling [...]
As you can doubtless tell from looking at my blogroll, I’ve been reading a lot of blogs about SecondLife. Particularly as it relates to BDSM, but not exclusively. One of the interesting contrasts between people surrounds the question of whether or not SecondLife is “real”. I know I’ve touched on this several times in this [...]