I’m sitting here (late, but it’s been that kind of week), late because I needed to help my wife take a bath. It’s going to be a bit of a late night, not badly, but somewhat. As for my sleep cycles, it’s okay because the last few days I’ve been sleeping a lot as I [...]
That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
Well if my reckoning is correct (and I’ll confirm it tomorrow, not tonight) this is the last of the week of blogs Miss directed me to do. It’s interesting to see how much more centered I am in my slavery to her in just that week. I guess what I needed more than anything was [...]
Today Miss was inworld for a while and it was very nice to hear her say that she too misses hanging out with me. Not that I doubted it, but having that validation was a nice surprise on top of the surprise that was seeing her log in. I’m getting better at checking in with [...]
So I’m running around SL as a house cat… it’s very interesting. I’m getting even more “Awww… isn’t he cute!” attention than in other forms At the same time, Miss has been coming in more often for a little while in the evening for some snuggles and some Greedy. I’ve very much been liking that, [...]
Tonight I’m not in SecondLife. It will be the first time in quite a while that I’ve been completely shut out of SecondLife. This is a consequence of my failing to obey precisely what my Miss directed me to do, something I’ve been doing quite a bit of late. So Miss set me an assignment [...]
Miss Tara and I have had a couple of very good conversations in the last 24 hours. A few results of that: For the next week I am to blog every night between 9:30 and 10:00. I’m to leave SecondLife so it’s not distracting me. Miss has been quite worried about punishing me when I [...]
I’m sitting here this evening thinking about a conversation Miss Tara and I had this morning, and on part of a conversation her Master had with her and her chain sister when we were all on a conference call earlier this evening. First off, I’m getting sloppier. On several occasions I’ve given Miss commitments on [...]
It may have been obvious in the last few posts, but I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Well I’m not the only one, Miss has been too. The good news is we’re both working our way out of our respective funks. The slightly less good news is I seem to be working [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
The question is, why? I had my usual reminder last night, and at that moment I was in the middle of… something, so I dismissed the reminder, finished what I was doing and promptly forgot all about blogging. What’s worse was earlier in the evening I reminded myself that I needed to blog and I [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
My last posting resulted in a long conversation between Miss Tara and I. A really good conversation. Out of that, Miss Tara has instructed me to write on the role of SecondLife in our relationship and how our relationship has transcended SecondLife. First, foremost, always, I am Owned. Miss Tara owns me completely, whether we’re [...]
I’ve been doing some more deep thinking over the last couple of days, and I had a realisation. I figured out one of the things that’s been getting me down, and it’s both a good and a bad thing. Last week, I was having some trouble sleeping. For no readily apparent reason, my knees were [...]
I was going to put this posting together from bits throughout the day, but instead I’ve decided to make each a separate posting. I’m at the office, waiting for a build to finish and pondering the coming evening. This is it. There’s no turning back. Tonight I make the second life-commitment I’ve ever made. The [...]
For the record, 30 hours, 4 minutes and 28 seconds until my Miss permanently collars me… and I’m writing a posting about obedience… or lack thereof… Let me start his analysis with the “what happened” and then I’ll move on to pondering the “how come”. I had four tasks to do yesterday. One was to [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Not that there was any question before, but today any possible teeny, tiny, itty-bitty doubt that my Miss owns me has been fully and irrevocably erased. Today in the mail a package arrived. I was on Yahoo with my Miss when it arrived. Quickly finding a private place, a knelt down with the laptop on [...]
There’s a fine line between innocent/silly brattiness and going a bit too far. Don’t think I quite went too far this evening, though my Miss did set me an assignment: “I want an essay about how being YOU is an important element of submission.” I’ll be honest, I’m struggling with this one a bit. I’m [...]
It’s Tuesday evening. Part way through my first full week back at work after a month’s leave, and part way through the first week that Miss Tara and I haven’t been together every day, or nearly every day, since…. well, since September. I’m still struggling a bit at work, I’m getting some stuff done, but [...]
This morning I showed off my new house to my Miss. She really likes it. It includes a built-in dungeon with two cells, one a tiny isolation cell behind a hidden door. As an exercise, she asked me to get into the isolation cell and remain there for exactly one hour, blogging about how it [...]
Over the weekend was the Forum’s first puppy event. The start was a little rocky, but ended up turning out wonderfully, surprisingly so for me! The first event was the agility course. I’d been practicing it over the previous week, and found a couple of strategies that seemed to work well. Going into the event [...]
A puppy’s eye view of the Forum from my doghouse. My Miss locked me in this morning for an 8 hour stint, and instructed me to write about how I was doing at the half way mark. In a number of ways this is very much like the time I spent as a statue, if [...]
This is another for Miss Tara, a basic listing of my own needs, wants and desires in being Hers. Some of these are things that are obvious, some are things my Miss is already doing. Some are related to kink, some are not. Needs: I need to know that my Miss is there for me. [...]
We’re still blasting through forms including creating a really cool robopuppy today. Definitely the comfort level is going up as we settle into our new (well only slightly) roles. We’re both realising how comfortable and natural this is, and we’re both learning things about ourselves in the process. Miss Tara shared an amazing quote with [...]