Feels like two steps forward one step back on a number of levels. Miss really wants me to be insightful in this blog, but I’m having a helluva time finding the words to write. She’s got some serious stresses in RL at the moment, I’m still working on my own stresses, and I’m finding it [...]
That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
Well if my reckoning is correct (and I’ll confirm it tomorrow, not tonight) this is the last of the week of blogs Miss directed me to do. It’s interesting to see how much more centered I am in my slavery to her in just that week. I guess what I needed more than anything was [...]
Tonight I’m not in SecondLife. It will be the first time in quite a while that I’ve been completely shut out of SecondLife. This is a consequence of my failing to obey precisely what my Miss directed me to do, something I’ve been doing quite a bit of late. So Miss set me an assignment [...]
It’s 9:30, on the dot. I’m doing my best to keep my word to my Miss, and to do so consistently. We had a long talk this morning about the fact that I was late getting my posting for the day done. Miss was not pleased. As a consequence, I’ll be banned from SL tomorrow [...]
It may have been obvious in the last few posts, but I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Well I’m not the only one, Miss has been too. The good news is we’re both working our way out of our respective funks. The slightly less good news is I seem to be working [...]
I’ll start with the confession first. I have an alt in SecondLife. Miss Tara is aware of this, and is also aware that my alt has been online virtually 24/7 for the last while. Mostly for Tiny Empires, and partly for simple bondage. My alt is female, no that doesn’t mean I’m transgendered, or experimenting, [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
Yesterday I asked Miss Tara to lock me up solid. I gave her a list of my idea, along with details of my thinking for my bane hood. As I’ve written on several occasions, I’ve not been feeling her control quite as much as I need, though without a doubt, we’ve been doing better with [...]
The question is, why? I had my usual reminder last night, and at that moment I was in the middle of… something, so I dismissed the reminder, finished what I was doing and promptly forgot all about blogging. What’s worse was earlier in the evening I reminded myself that I needed to blog and I [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
My last posting resulted in a long conversation between Miss Tara and I. A really good conversation. Out of that, Miss Tara has instructed me to write on the role of SecondLife in our relationship and how our relationship has transcended SecondLife. First, foremost, always, I am Owned. Miss Tara owns me completely, whether we’re [...]
I’ve been doing some more deep thinking over the last couple of days, and I had a realisation. I figured out one of the things that’s been getting me down, and it’s both a good and a bad thing. Last week, I was having some trouble sleeping. For no readily apparent reason, my knees were [...]
It’s been a bit of a rough week or so, and what is interesting to me is the degree to which I didn’t realise it, but Miss Tara did. Work has been piling up a bit, not too badly, but more than I’d like. The situation with my step-daughter continues to evolve and we’re still [...]
It’s now been more than 48 hours since my Miss put her collar on me for good. Has anything changed in that time? Well, yes and no. Yes, I’m still floating from Tuesday night, I am, simply, Miss Tara’s. There’s no question, no little voice saying “Yeah but…”. None of that. I am and ever [...]
Two hours, 28 minutes to go… I’m really starting to feel the anticipation now, and I’m seriously watching the clock. I can’t wait and I gotta wait and I can’t wait and But seriously, I’m almost down to counting the seconds. This evening we acknowledge what is, what has been, and what will be. That [...]
I was going to put this posting together from bits throughout the day, but instead I’ve decided to make each a separate posting. I’m at the office, waiting for a build to finish and pondering the coming evening. This is it. There’s no turning back. Tonight I make the second life-commitment I’ve ever made. The [...]
For the record, 30 hours, 4 minutes and 28 seconds until my Miss permanently collars me… and I’m writing a posting about obedience… or lack thereof… Let me start his analysis with the “what happened” and then I’ll move on to pondering the “how come”. I had four tasks to do yesterday. One was to [...]
My Miss gave me a surprise yesterday… she told me when she’ll be collaring me. She also gave me an assignment, to design the invitations… I think I came up with a nice design, I sent a copy to her to get her opinion… It’s interesting to me that I’m more nervous about the invitations [...]
My Miss has been permanently collared. She has permission from her Master to collar me permanently. She has a list of who I’d dearly love to have witness my collaring. She has chosen which will be my permanent collar. All that’s needed now is the collaring itself. We were talking about timing, and the fact [...]
Not the same line as before, a different one and from a different direction. Perhaps a better title for this posting is: Where exactly are my limits? On Thursday, after seeing my wife off to her appointment, I decided on a whim to work from home the rest of the afternoon. There was no particular [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Today marks two months since my wonderful Miss put her collar on me. A lot has happened in two months, both good and bad, in RL and in SL, and my Miss has been there with me the whole way. Encouraging, coaching, kicking my ass when it needed kicking, giving me a should to cry [...]
It’s Tuesday evening. Part way through my first full week back at work after a month’s leave, and part way through the first week that Miss Tara and I haven’t been together every day, or nearly every day, since…. well, since September. I’m still struggling a bit at work, I’m getting some stuff done, but [...]
We’re still blasting through forms including creating a really cool robopuppy today. Definitely the comfort level is going up as we settle into our new (well only slightly) roles. We’re both realising how comfortable and natural this is, and we’re both learning things about ourselves in the process. Miss Tara shared an amazing quote with [...]