Not a lot to talk about tonight. I’ve been quite busy with work, it’s a good thing. I’ve been pretty busy making plans and designing the inventory manager. I’ve been spending more time with Miss playing backgammon, or Monopoly, or what have you online. We haven’t really spent any time in SL together and it’s [...]
I seem to be just kind of floating along these days. I’m not doing a very good job of obeying my Miss’s direction, I’m not finding much fun in SL at the moment, I’m not finding much satisfaction in my work (though that does seem to be going okay). Miss Tara asks me to identify [...]
That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
It’s funny, I was incredibly tired all day, but this evening I’m wide awake. There’s some good news, some interesting news, some thoughts. The news: I’m now Viceroy of the Tiny Empires Kingdom of Forum! Tomorrow I should be named Grand Viceroy. This means that while King Jamie is asleep on the other side of [...]
Miss Tara and I have had a couple of very good conversations in the last 24 hours. A few results of that: For the next week I am to blog every night between 9:30 and 10:00. I’m to leave SecondLife so it’s not distracting me. Miss has been quite worried about punishing me when I [...]
I’m sitting here this evening thinking about a conversation Miss Tara and I had this morning, and on part of a conversation her Master had with her and her chain sister when we were all on a conference call earlier this evening. First off, I’m getting sloppier. On several occasions I’ve given Miss commitments on [...]
It may have been obvious in the last few posts, but I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Well I’m not the only one, Miss has been too. The good news is we’re both working our way out of our respective funks. The slightly less good news is I seem to be working [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
My last posting resulted in a long conversation between Miss Tara and I. A really good conversation. Out of that, Miss Tara has instructed me to write on the role of SecondLife in our relationship and how our relationship has transcended SecondLife. First, foremost, always, I am Owned. Miss Tara owns me completely, whether we’re [...]
It’s been a bit of a rough week or so, and what is interesting to me is the degree to which I didn’t realise it, but Miss Tara did. Work has been piling up a bit, not too badly, but more than I’d like. The situation with my step-daughter continues to evolve and we’re still [...]
First, I have to acknowledge something astonishing that happened today. This blog got more than twice the number of hits it’s ever had in a single day before. The last count I saw was 143. All I can say is: Wow, and welcome! Please do not feel shy about posting comments, I moderate first time [...]
It’s now been more than 48 hours since my Miss put her collar on me for good. Has anything changed in that time? Well, yes and no. Yes, I’m still floating from Tuesday night, I am, simply, Miss Tara’s. There’s no question, no little voice saying “Yeah but…”. None of that. I am and ever [...]
Two hours, 28 minutes to go… I’m really starting to feel the anticipation now, and I’m seriously watching the clock. I can’t wait and I gotta wait and I can’t wait and But seriously, I’m almost down to counting the seconds. This evening we acknowledge what is, what has been, and what will be. That [...]
I was going to put this posting together from bits throughout the day, but instead I’ve decided to make each a separate posting. I’m at the office, waiting for a build to finish and pondering the coming evening. This is it. There’s no turning back. Tonight I make the second life-commitment I’ve ever made. The [...]
For the record, 30 hours, 4 minutes and 28 seconds until my Miss permanently collars me… and I’m writing a posting about obedience… or lack thereof… Let me start his analysis with the “what happened” and then I’ll move on to pondering the “how come”. I had four tasks to do yesterday. One was to [...]
My Miss gave me a surprise yesterday… she told me when she’ll be collaring me. She also gave me an assignment, to design the invitations… I think I came up with a nice design, I sent a copy to her to get her opinion… It’s interesting to me that I’m more nervous about the invitations [...]
My Miss has been permanently collared. She has permission from her Master to collar me permanently. She has a list of who I’d dearly love to have witness my collaring. She has chosen which will be my permanent collar. All that’s needed now is the collaring itself. We were talking about timing, and the fact [...]
Not the same line as before, a different one and from a different direction. Perhaps a better title for this posting is: Where exactly are my limits? On Thursday, after seeing my wife off to her appointment, I decided on a whim to work from home the rest of the afternoon. There was no particular [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Today marks two months since my wonderful Miss put her collar on me. A lot has happened in two months, both good and bad, in RL and in SL, and my Miss has been there with me the whole way. Encouraging, coaching, kicking my ass when it needed kicking, giving me a should to cry [...]
Not that there was any question before, but today any possible teeny, tiny, itty-bitty doubt that my Miss owns me has been fully and irrevocably erased. Today in the mail a package arrived. I was on Yahoo with my Miss when it arrived. Quickly finding a private place, a knelt down with the laptop on [...]
It’s been a species-flexible few days. Started off as yakar, my tiger avatar; then Sarcee, ponyboy; then Sarcee, full horse; then buster the tiny puppy which is how I’m spending the night tonight and, well, until it pleases my Miss to tell me to change. It’s been a little hectic in some ways, I’ve rebuilt [...]
Yesterday was like that. We spoke a couple of times, once she called me; the other time I called her. When she called, she could hear that I was frustrated, once again showing how in tune she is with me. She’d called needing to make contact with me and I was doing my damnedest to [...]
It’s Tuesday evening. Part way through my first full week back at work after a month’s leave, and part way through the first week that Miss Tara and I haven’t been together every day, or nearly every day, since…. well, since September. I’m still struggling a bit at work, I’m getting some stuff done, but [...]