I’m sitting here (late, but it’s been that kind of week), late because I needed to help my wife take a bath. It’s going to be a bit of a late night, not badly, but somewhat. As for my sleep cycles, it’s okay because the last few days I’ve been sleeping a lot as I [...]
I seem to be just kind of floating along these days. I’m not doing a very good job of obeying my Miss’s direction, I’m not finding much fun in SL at the moment, I’m not finding much satisfaction in my work (though that does seem to be going okay). Miss Tara asks me to identify [...]
Feels like two steps forward one step back on a number of levels. Miss really wants me to be insightful in this blog, but I’m having a helluva time finding the words to write. She’s got some serious stresses in RL at the moment, I’m still working on my own stresses, and I’m finding it [...]
That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
Well if my reckoning is correct (and I’ll confirm it tomorrow, not tonight) this is the last of the week of blogs Miss directed me to do. It’s interesting to see how much more centered I am in my slavery to her in just that week. I guess what I needed more than anything was [...]
Today Miss was inworld for a while and it was very nice to hear her say that she too misses hanging out with me. Not that I doubted it, but having that validation was a nice surprise on top of the surprise that was seeing her log in. I’m getting better at checking in with [...]
So I’m running around SL as a house cat… it’s very interesting. I’m getting even more “Awww… isn’t he cute!” attention than in other forms At the same time, Miss has been coming in more often for a little while in the evening for some snuggles and some Greedy. I’ve very much been liking that, [...]
Tonight I’m not in SecondLife. It will be the first time in quite a while that I’ve been completely shut out of SecondLife. This is a consequence of my failing to obey precisely what my Miss directed me to do, something I’ve been doing quite a bit of late. So Miss set me an assignment [...]
It’s funny, I was incredibly tired all day, but this evening I’m wide awake. There’s some good news, some interesting news, some thoughts. The news: I’m now Viceroy of the Tiny Empires Kingdom of Forum! Tomorrow I should be named Grand Viceroy. This means that while King Jamie is asleep on the other side of [...]
I’m sitting here this evening thinking about a conversation Miss Tara and I had this morning, and on part of a conversation her Master had with her and her chain sister when we were all on a conference call earlier this evening. First off, I’m getting sloppier. On several occasions I’ve given Miss commitments on [...]
Missed my posting last night because I fell asleep in my chair, oops. Also missed sending my daily update email to Miss. Feels like I’ve been slacking a fair bit lately. Things are going reasonably well at work, I’m not falling behind the way I used to, and I’m following through better than, say, 6 [...]
It’s been a couple of rough weeks. Mostly due to RL stuff. It’s been a struggle, but there’s one thing I know and will never, ever forget: Miss is there for me. Always. Her support and occasional ass-kicking has gone a long way to helping me pull out of the latest beginning spiral. We’ve both [...]
I wrote a little while ago that I’ve had my alt at a play space being essentially a bondage doll. It’s been a nice diversion, and this weekend I sort of switched back and forth from pony practice, to her, to working on a product design. Miss has been at a bondage convention with her [...]
It may have been obvious in the last few posts, but I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Well I’m not the only one, Miss has been too. The good news is we’re both working our way out of our respective funks. The slightly less good news is I seem to be working [...]
I’ll start with the confession first. I have an alt in SecondLife. Miss Tara is aware of this, and is also aware that my alt has been online virtually 24/7 for the last while. Mostly for Tiny Empires, and partly for simple bondage. My alt is female, no that doesn’t mean I’m transgendered, or experimenting, [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
The question is, why? I had my usual reminder last night, and at that moment I was in the middle of… something, so I dismissed the reminder, finished what I was doing and promptly forgot all about blogging. What’s worse was earlier in the evening I reminded myself that I needed to blog and I [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
I’ve been doing some more deep thinking over the last couple of days, and I had a realisation. I figured out one of the things that’s been getting me down, and it’s both a good and a bad thing. Last week, I was having some trouble sleeping. For no readily apparent reason, my knees were [...]
It’s been a bit of a rough week or so, and what is interesting to me is the degree to which I didn’t realise it, but Miss Tara did. Work has been piling up a bit, not too badly, but more than I’d like. The situation with my step-daughter continues to evolve and we’re still [...]
For the record, 30 hours, 4 minutes and 28 seconds until my Miss permanently collars me… and I’m writing a posting about obedience… or lack thereof… Let me start his analysis with the “what happened” and then I’ll move on to pondering the “how come”. I had four tasks to do yesterday. One was to [...]
Not the same line as before, a different one and from a different direction. Perhaps a better title for this posting is: Where exactly are my limits? On Thursday, after seeing my wife off to her appointment, I decided on a whim to work from home the rest of the afternoon. There was no particular [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Today marks two months since my wonderful Miss put her collar on me. A lot has happened in two months, both good and bad, in RL and in SL, and my Miss has been there with me the whole way. Encouraging, coaching, kicking my ass when it needed kicking, giving me a should to cry [...]
There’s a fine line between innocent/silly brattiness and going a bit too far. Don’t think I quite went too far this evening, though my Miss did set me an assignment: “I want an essay about how being YOU is an important element of submission.” I’ll be honest, I’m struggling with this one a bit. I’m [...]