A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
An SL and a RL update… Most of the friends who I blogged about recently having relationship troubles are no longer in relationships. For one that’s a bad thing because she really needs to get out of that relationship and soon. For the others, ultimately it will be for the best, but it’s certainly not [...]
Miss deka and I are preparing for a major change at home. We’re getting rid of the castle because frankly, it’s just too damned big. We’ve have a comfortable amount of stuff in it, and it feels empty. A good friend of Miss deka’s is building a house for us. I’ll be doing the scripts [...]
Miss deka took another sub under her wing today (well I guess last night). Ember is quite new to SL and completely new to the BDSM lifestyle. Miss deka has taken her in primarily to afford her protection from the many predators and players out there that would take her, chew her up and spit [...]
In newspaper terms, I’m totally burying the lead, and doing it on purpose <grin>. The day started nicely enough, I did some troubleshooting on a bug report, found the bug, killed the bug, posted an update. I was up really early since I went to bed quite early last night. Later at the Forum, a [...]
Though it was a small part of the evening, tonight’s post is going to focus on my ex-owner, Enigma, and her attempts to guilt-trip me. Before we get to the main piece, a summary of the evening. It sucked. Mostly because of RL, in particular my 15 year-old daughter who is rather thoroughly out of [...]
Wow, it’s been a long time since I posted an update. A lot has happened since my last posting, I’m not really going to try to bring it all up to date in this one posting. I’ll put up some others shortly as well. The big news is that Miss Enigma released me last weekend. [...]
Ever wondered what the best way to start the day with a spring in your step is? I have found the secret. First, spend some time with good friends just chatting about random things of interest. In my case, the Forum is my preferred location. Second, meet your owner at the farm for a quick [...]
Forgot one interesting tidbit through the weekend, it’ll take a moment to set it up… Ponies are enormous lag generators. We also tend to have many if not all attachment points occupied with gear as well as several HUDs loaded. One thing I’m trying to do is to reduce the clutter on my screen by [...]
It’s interesting to me to see how my blog has evolved over time. It’s gone from deep introspection into identity and gender and roles… through some serious whining (*cough*), umm, make that examination of unpleasant events and my reactions to them… and now a much more balanced view of how SecondLife is going for me. [...]
I’ve been doing some reflecting over the last few days and I’m really liking what I’m seeing. It’s now been exactly eight days since Miss Enigma first collared me, and four days since we made it permanent. In that time I’ve met some of Miss’s other subs, we’ve found a lot of easter eggs, and [...]
How’s that for a mixed bag title? Let’s talk about the last few days, shall we? I’ve been spending a lot of time with my new owner, Miss Enigma. It’s been a trial period to see how we get on and frankly, we’ve been getting on really well. Most of our time together has been [...]
It’s now the next morning and I’m still kind of floating from the day I had yesterday. I need to keep checking back to my chat log to make sure I’ve got the ordering correct, but who really cares about what came before what? The best part started off after just royally sucking at the [...]
Well I’m sitting here a little in shock, and it’s a very good thing. I got up stupidly early this morning (4:00 am, don’t ask me why, I don’t know) and when I logged in, my friend Chrissy was struggling to get a nice photo done for her stall door at FFF. I was more [...]