I’m sitting here this evening thinking about a conversation Miss Tara and I had this morning, and on part of a conversation her Master had with her and her chain sister when we were all on a conference call earlier this evening. First off, I’m getting sloppier. On several occasions I’ve given Miss commitments on [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
First, I have to acknowledge something astonishing that happened today. This blog got more than twice the number of hits it’s ever had in a single day before. The last count I saw was 143. All I can say is: Wow, and welcome! Please do not feel shy about posting comments, I moderate first time [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
This is a post I really did not want to write. I started composing it at 10:04 on December 17th, 2009, and have completed it just before midnight on December 19th, 2009. Six months and four days ago you put your collar on me. It was one of the happiest moments of my second life. [...]
Miss deka was able to spend most of the evening in SL tonight and it was wonderful. Mostly we just sat together at the circle, idly chatting, or just sitting quietly. It was one of the nicest evenings I’ve had in quite some time. Miss was pleased with the changes I’ve made to my purple [...]
What a week! There was the cross country race all week long, followed by dressage on Saturday and the Pretty Pony event on Sunday. I haven’t spent that much time in tack non-stop in months. I had a blast. Maybe I should ask Miss deka to lock me in tack for a week at a [...]
Two of the four couples that I mentioned were in trouble last night have dissolved. Jane’s Dom was splitting his time between his vanilla relationship with someone else and his D/s relationship with Jane (and no, she wasn’t aware of the vanilla relationship when they initially got together). Tara’s Dom just split. Things had been [...]
Is it a full moon coming? Is it that with winter approaching everyone is on edge? It seems like an awful lot of people I know are having severe relationship troubles. Four couples I know have or are about to split up, one couple is having really serious communications issues and it’s seriously impacting their [...]
Miss deka reminded me that I haven’t blogged much of late. So I’m going to recommit to posting something every day, even if it’s “Spent the evening at the Forum chatting”. Miss hasn’t been able to be on a lot lately, but I’ve been keeping busy. We were getting a new house built, but the [...]
No this does not have anything to do with the fact that Miss deka is out of SL for a little while as she gets her network connection relocated after a short move. I’m not pining for her, or worried that she’s not coming back, all of that is behind me. I know she’s here [...]
Miss deka and I are preparing for a major change at home. We’re getting rid of the castle because frankly, it’s just too damned big. We’ve have a comfortable amount of stuff in it, and it feels empty. A good friend of Miss deka’s is building a house for us. I’ll be doing the scripts [...]
Miss deka took another sub under her wing today (well I guess last night). Ember is quite new to SL and completely new to the BDSM lifestyle. Miss deka has taken her in primarily to afford her protection from the many predators and players out there that would take her, chew her up and spit [...]
Meant to post something every evening for the last several evenings but kept not doing it… Mostly because I’ve been having way too much fun (modulo a RL crisis on Saturday). Miss deka has decided that it is time to up the ante a bit, more bondage, more extremes in what I’m wearing, more on [...]
Miss deka was occupied being dollified this evening so she left me at the Forum all tightly bound in my Restrained Freedom discipline suit. I’d completely forgotten that I owned it until yesterday when we stopped by the RF main store (I’d only actually worn it once before). Other than Forum crashing, it was a [...]
Spent a fun evening with Miss deka, hanging out at the Forum. I spent most of it curled up next to her, tail wagging happily. I kept hearing a cat around, but as a dumb puppy (grin) it took me a little while to realise that the cat that was meowing was actually Miss! It [...]
Most nights, when I go to bed, I am idle in SL. Usually locked into a cage, or equivalent for the night. I go to bed in RL knowing that I’m all snug and secure in SL and it’s a really nice feeling. Yesterday I hadn’t seen Miss deka all day. That’s not unusual right [...]
I’m not even sure if that’s the right way to put it either. I’m feeling thoroughly overwhelmed by life (RL), especially work which is piled up and I’m seriously stuck. I just can’t get into a consistent roll with the project I’ve got. Oh yeah, and I’m supposed to have it done, reviewed and checked [...]
In newspaper terms, I’m totally burying the lead, and doing it on purpose <grin>. The day started nicely enough, I did some troubleshooting on a bug report, found the bug, killed the bug, posted an update. I was up really early since I went to bed quite early last night. Later at the Forum, a [...]
Had a really nice evening on the Twisted Hunt with Miss deka. We spent most of it in matching outfits (from the hunt of course) and once we had her caught up to where I had reached the competition was on! Well, I don’t know about competition, fairly quickly Miss decided to truss be up [...]
I shocked myself today, I got my inventory down to a little over 6000 items. That’s down from a peak of over 14000! Then the new Twisted Hunt had to start … So it’s creeping back up. My big challenges are my Objects folder (it scares me!), my Building Tools folder and my pictures. I’ve [...]
Well that was a very full day! I was puttering around, doing some work on my scripts, when suddenly Miss deka logs on! I rush home to greet her and we had a long talk and I think we cleared the air quite a bit. I found out why she unlocked my collar, it was [...]
Well, I dunno about tropical but I sure did flash back to Bangalore this afternoon when I stepped out of the office. It hit 100 degrees here. It almost never hits 100 degrees. It’s 11:26pm and the temperature is still 78 degrees. Fortunately it’s supposed to start cooling tomorrow. Bring back the fog!! It’s been [...]
Not a lot going on this evening, spent a good chunk of it sitting at home playing Greedy with Tara and Re. Miss came in briefly, but she couldn’t stay long. Seems like RL stresses are getting her down a bit. She didn’t seem her usual self. I wish there was something I could do [...]