That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
I wrote a little while ago that I’ve had my alt at a play space being essentially a bondage doll. It’s been a nice diversion, and this weekend I sort of switched back and forth from pony practice, to her, to working on a product design. Miss has been at a bondage convention with her [...]
I’ve been thinking a lot about ownership lately, and about what being owned means for me, and how it’s expressed and how it affects my life. Something else I’ve been considering is that I am and actually always have been owned by a switch. Miss Tara is another’s slave. I am her slave. What does [...]
My last posting resulted in a long conversation between Miss Tara and I. A really good conversation. Out of that, Miss Tara has instructed me to write on the role of SecondLife in our relationship and how our relationship has transcended SecondLife. First, foremost, always, I am Owned. Miss Tara owns me completely, whether we’re [...]
It’s been a bit of a rough week or so, and what is interesting to me is the degree to which I didn’t realise it, but Miss Tara did. Work has been piling up a bit, not too badly, but more than I’d like. The situation with my step-daughter continues to evolve and we’re still [...]
First off the good news. My Miss is back home and was in SL for a while last night. She got very sick on her trip, ended up in hospital for a couple of days. She’s back home now and getting better, but still pretty under the weather. We were able to spend some time [...]
My Miss has been permanently collared. She has permission from her Master to collar me permanently. She has a list of who I’d dearly love to have witness my collaring. She has chosen which will be my permanent collar. All that’s needed now is the collaring itself. We were talking about timing, and the fact [...]
I’m sitting at the office, waiting for a test run to complete so I can narrow in on when a bug was introduced (seriously hate this kind of debugging, but that’s a different story). As I’m sitting here, I’m pondering the last few months, and in particular pondering life as Miss Tara’s. I’m going to [...]
Not that there was any question before, but today any possible teeny, tiny, itty-bitty doubt that my Miss owns me has been fully and irrevocably erased. Today in the mail a package arrived. I was on Yahoo with my Miss when it arrived. Quickly finding a private place, a knelt down with the laptop on [...]
This morning I showed off my new house to my Miss. She really likes it. It includes a built-in dungeon with two cells, one a tiny isolation cell behind a hidden door. As an exercise, she asked me to get into the isolation cell and remain there for exactly one hour, blogging about how it [...]
Yesterday marked the kickoff to Forum’s Puppy Event. The event will include an agility course, a puppy parade and another event which I forget. The lead up to the events were a talk yesterday on being a puppy, and tomorrow on owning a puppy. Sunday there’s a puppy dance (which should be interesting). The talk [...]
This is another for Miss Tara, a basic listing of my own needs, wants and desires in being Hers. Some of these are things that are obvious, some are things my Miss is already doing. Some are related to kink, some are not. Needs: I need to know that my Miss is there for me. [...]
Miss deka took another sub under her wing today (well I guess last night). Ember is quite new to SL and completely new to the BDSM lifestyle. Miss deka has taken her in primarily to afford her protection from the many predators and players out there that would take her, chew her up and spit [...]
Miss deka was occupied being dollified this evening so she left me at the Forum all tightly bound in my Restrained Freedom discipline suit. I’d completely forgotten that I owned it until yesterday when we stopped by the RF main store (I’d only actually worn it once before). Other than Forum crashing, it was a [...]
Spent a fun evening with Miss deka, hanging out at the Forum. I spent most of it curled up next to her, tail wagging happily. I kept hearing a cat around, but as a dumb puppy (grin) it took me a little while to realise that the cat that was meowing was actually Miss! It [...]
In newspaper terms, I’m totally burying the lead, and doing it on purpose <grin>. The day started nicely enough, I did some troubleshooting on a bug report, found the bug, killed the bug, posted an update. I was up really early since I went to bed quite early last night. Later at the Forum, a [...]
Had a really nice evening on the Twisted Hunt with Miss deka. We spent most of it in matching outfits (from the hunt of course) and once we had her caught up to where I had reached the competition was on! Well, I don’t know about competition, fairly quickly Miss decided to truss be up [...]
Well that was a very full day! I was puttering around, doing some work on my scripts, when suddenly Miss deka logs on! I rush home to greet her and we had a long talk and I think we cleared the air quite a bit. I found out why she unlocked my collar, it was [...]
Yin and Yang strike again. RL has been doing a really good job of kicking my ass the last few days. I’m still glowing from seeing Miss last night and that went a long way to carrying me through the RL nonsense today. I really hope her weekend goes better than mine is shaping up [...]
Sunday has proven to be an interesting day for me. On the one hand, Miss deka still has not been able to return to SL. It’s okay though because she sent me an IM on Yahoo letting me know that she’s still around, that things are okay just really busy and that I’m still in [...]
When I got up this morning, Miss ordered me to stay at the prison until she called me. It wasn’t long before she brought me to her and proceeded to dress me up as a silver latex doll. I was a bit surprised, I’d expected either pony or, that we’d be heading off to get [...]
I’m slowly getting back on track to regularly blog again. If possible, I’d like to get back to daily updates. At the very least, some short reflection on how the day went, how things are going, etc. Today was a mostly quiet day. Miss deka was pretty tightly restricted by her Master so she kept [...]
I am about to receive a collar under trial from deka Nexen. This morning, she set me an assignment which I am doing here. The assignment is: For each of the forms I commonly take, what exactly is it they do for me, both in SL and RL, what need do they fulfill and how [...]
Wow, it’s been a long time since I posted an update. A lot has happened since my last posting, I’m not really going to try to bring it all up to date in this one posting. I’ll put up some others shortly as well. The big news is that Miss Enigma released me last weekend. [...]
It is done. I offered to return Miss’s collar and she accepted. I am again unowned. I won’t say that I am free because that’s not how it feels. Not even close. I will say that for right now it is the right thing to do for both of us. She needs to not be [...]