Today marked Miss Tara’s Master’s fourth anniversary with his first sub. We had a party at my place, I set up the dance floor, booth, etc. and had great fun DJing again. It’s been too long since I DJed. Time to resurrect the Wednesday Hump Day parties I think. It did get me thinking a [...]
The end result was very very good, but getting there was agonizing. I think I blogged earlier this year about my step-daughter and that she’d run away from home. We’ve got CPS involved, we’ve got Juvenile Probation involved, and we’ve been playing a waiting game. The assumption has always been that in time she would [...]
A couple of things have happened over the last few days that have really driven home the fact that SecondLife is not a game. It’s a means to meet and get to know people. To become friends, to become more than friends. It’s a place where people can become intimately intertwined in each others’ lives. [...]
Miss Tara does like to give me challenges. In this posting she has instructed me to write about what I mean to her, and why. Not what she means to me, but what I mean to her. For the record, I dislike these kinds of assignment because it forces me to confront the fact that [...]
Another fairly quiet week, but in a good way. I seem to be getting my old self back at work (RL) and that has helped my mood tremendously. Miss has been a big help with that, encouraging me, smacking me when I’ve slipped up, cheering me on. I had missed a deadline at the office [...]
Not a lot to talk about tonight. I’ve been quite busy with work, it’s a good thing. I’ve been pretty busy making plans and designing the inventory manager. I’ve been spending more time with Miss playing backgammon, or Monopoly, or what have you online. We haven’t really spent any time in SL together and it’s [...]
I’m sitting here (late, but it’s been that kind of week), late because I needed to help my wife take a bath. It’s going to be a bit of a late night, not badly, but somewhat. As for my sleep cycles, it’s okay because the last few days I’ve been sleeping a lot as I [...]
I seem to be just kind of floating along these days. I’m not doing a very good job of obeying my Miss’s direction, I’m not finding much fun in SL at the moment, I’m not finding much satisfaction in my work (though that does seem to be going okay). Miss Tara asks me to identify [...]
Talk about being derailed. My blog was offline for a while this evening due to a database error. Fortunately I was able to repair the database and everything appears to be operating normally again. It made for a bit of a panic though as I was sweating through several scenarios, first that my blog would [...]
Feels like two steps forward one step back on a number of levels. Miss really wants me to be insightful in this blog, but I’m having a helluva time finding the words to write. She’s got some serious stresses in RL at the moment, I’m still working on my own stresses, and I’m finding it [...]
That pretty much sums it up. We’re not physically together so Miss can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me up. We’re not in SL a lot together of late, so she can’t exercise her control over me by chaining me, or ordering me into other forms or what-have-you. So that leaves RL, and [...]
Well if my reckoning is correct (and I’ll confirm it tomorrow, not tonight) this is the last of the week of blogs Miss directed me to do. It’s interesting to see how much more centered I am in my slavery to her in just that week. I guess what I needed more than anything was [...]
Today Miss was inworld for a while and it was very nice to hear her say that she too misses hanging out with me. Not that I doubted it, but having that validation was a nice surprise on top of the surprise that was seeing her log in. I’m getting better at checking in with [...]
So I’m running around SL as a house cat… it’s very interesting. I’m getting even more “Awww… isn’t he cute!” attention than in other forms At the same time, Miss has been coming in more often for a little while in the evening for some snuggles and some Greedy. I’ve very much been liking that, [...]
Tonight I’m not in SecondLife. It will be the first time in quite a while that I’ve been completely shut out of SecondLife. This is a consequence of my failing to obey precisely what my Miss directed me to do, something I’ve been doing quite a bit of late. So Miss set me an assignment [...]
It’s 9:30, on the dot. I’m doing my best to keep my word to my Miss, and to do so consistently. We had a long talk this morning about the fact that I was late getting my posting for the day done. Miss was not pleased. As a consequence, I’ll be banned from SL tomorrow [...]
It’s funny, I was incredibly tired all day, but this evening I’m wide awake. There’s some good news, some interesting news, some thoughts. The news: I’m now Viceroy of the Tiny Empires Kingdom of Forum! Tomorrow I should be named Grand Viceroy. This means that while King Jamie is asleep on the other side of [...]
I’m sitting here this evening thinking about a conversation Miss Tara and I had this morning, and on part of a conversation her Master had with her and her chain sister when we were all on a conference call earlier this evening. First off, I’m getting sloppier. On several occasions I’ve given Miss commitments on [...]
I’ve got nothing. I need to keep this blog going, and Miss has been kind enough to cut down my requirement to once a week, but even though I missed last week, I’ve got nothing. Well sort of. My wife ended up in the hospital week before last from an accidental overdose of my sleep [...]
It may have been obvious in the last few posts, but I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Well I’m not the only one, Miss has been too. The good news is we’re both working our way out of our respective funks. The slightly less good news is I seem to be working [...]
A recent thread on FetLife got me thinking again about two labels that are bandied about in the BDSM community: Slave and Pet. It got me thinking about how I define myself. When I was with Wednesdai, I described myself often as her pet. Her role was to look after me, keep me in line. [...]
The question is, why? I had my usual reminder last night, and at that moment I was in the middle of… something, so I dismissed the reminder, finished what I was doing and promptly forgot all about blogging. What’s worse was earlier in the evening I reminded myself that I needed to blog and I [...]
I’ve been doing some more deep thinking over the last couple of days, and I had a realisation. I figured out one of the things that’s been getting me down, and it’s both a good and a bad thing. Last week, I was having some trouble sleeping. For no readily apparent reason, my knees were [...]
It’s been a bit of a rough week or so, and what is interesting to me is the degree to which I didn’t realise it, but Miss Tara did. Work has been piling up a bit, not too badly, but more than I’d like. The situation with my step-daughter continues to evolve and we’re still [...]
Not the same line as before, a different one and from a different direction. Perhaps a better title for this posting is: Where exactly are my limits? On Thursday, after seeing my wife off to her appointment, I decided on a whim to work from home the rest of the afternoon. There was no particular [...]