I’ve decided that I need to take my daughter at her word. I need to believe her that she’ll sink so low as to attempt to bargain with her mother’s well being. So tomorrow I’m going to put my job in jeopardy by working from home and spending most of the day on the phone attempting to find home care assistance for my wife.

On the one hand I need to take back the power from my daughter. On the other hand I need to be sure that my wife has adequate care. The gripping hand is that this is not going to be cheap, and it means that our ability to buy a house any time soon is being sacrificed. So be it. The more I think about it, the more I welcome any and all help that may show up no matter what the potential cost to me. As long as my wife is being cared for adequately, and as long as I have a chance to keep a roof over our heads, I’m finding the strength to continue again. I’m not going to fight with my daughter over whether or not she’s going to look after her mother who needs her. I’m not about to back down on the TEASPOT, but all the rest I’m letting go.

She hates me. She’s said so herself on many occasions. So be it. I wash my hands of any attempt to get back in her good graces. Right now, she’s not worth it. She’s raised the price of her cooperation too high. I’m not going to play and I don’t give a damn anymore. I will continue to honour my commitment to her, I will house and clothe and feed her and continue to fight to get her the help she so desperately needs, but I will no longer attempt to rely on her for anything. With regard to her stated goal of achieving just that, she’s won. I hope she is willing to pay the cost of that victory. With regard to her stated goal of destroying my family, no fucking way. She doesn’t rate, and she doesn’t have the power to do that. I’ll call CPS on her myself before I allow her to do that. With regard to her stated goal of getting out of here and away from us, she may win there, she might not. Again, I hope for her sake she’s willing to pay the price of that victory, because the price is going to be high whether she admits it or not.

Related posts:

1. Reached the next step, now to see how it all plays out
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3. Looking for an end to the drama…
4. Nothing really to report
5. When SL and RL collide

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1. 

   Tara Reardon

   I know how hard things are for you right now. Just know that your friends are there for you, and you and Lisa have our support. I'm amazed at how strong you two are. You are truly incredible people; your love has carried you through the most stressful situations.

   You deserve to walk tall, with your head held high. You are doing the best that anyone could in this situation and I'm proud of you.

   August 7, 2009 at 13:54
2. 

   Marlene

   What Tara said goes double for Me, Corvan!

   August 8, 2009 at 20:54