Well that was a very full day! I was puttering around, doing some work on my scripts, when suddenly Miss deka logs on! I rush home to greet her and we had a long talk and I think we cleared the air quite a bit. I found out why she unlocked my collar, it was [...]
Well, I dunno about tropical but I sure did flash back to Bangalore this afternoon when I stepped out of the office. It hit 100 degrees here. It almost never hits 100 degrees. It’s 11:26pm and the temperature is still 78 degrees. Fortunately it’s supposed to start cooling tomorrow. Bring back the fog!! It’s been [...]
There’s something about people that I just don’t get. Are people deliberately stupid? Or perhaps I should say are they deliberately rude? I started the evening feeling really grumpy. On the way home from Lisa’s appointment we encountered rude and/or stupid person after rude and/or stupid person. By the time we got home I was [...]
Not a lot going on this evening, spent a good chunk of it sitting at home playing Greedy with Tara and Re. Miss came in briefly, but she couldn’t stay long. Seems like RL stresses are getting her down a bit. She didn’t seem her usual self. I wish there was something I could do [...]
Been keeping busy cleaning up my inventory. As of this morning I’ve got my inventory down below 12000 items! That’s not to say that I’ve thrown everything out, just that I’ve categorised and put into archive boxes. I’m the first to admit I’m a pack rat, and at least now I’m starting to pack… Otherwise [...]
well…. My picture’s going to be published anyway. FemDom Magazine is putting together an article on Ponyboys and needed a couple of ponies to photograph. They approached Miss Button at FFF and asked her for recommendations and one of the ponies she recommended was me! I was really flattered, and when I met the photographer [...]
Miss deka has returned. Have I mentioned that yet? Things are getting back to normal for her in RL, and for us in SL. We went hunting yesterday, I haven’t been on a hunt since I got so burned out with Enigma. When she asked me if I liked hunting, I let her know that [...]
How better to title it? I had no sooner started to come to terms with the thought that it really didn’t look like Miss deka was coming back, than my radar announces that she’d just logged in. I’m not going to go into detail about what it was that was keeping her out of SL, [...]
Real time now. Just a short note. A few minutes ago Tara gave me a choice. Take off the collar to release the kneel, or wait longer if I’m not comfortable taking that step. I surprised myself a little, I’ve left it on. I’m not ready to give up on Miss deka, and taking off [...]
—– Sunday August 16, 14:27 SLT —– It’s official, it’s now over a week since deka disappeared. When I next see Tara I’m going to ask her permission to safeword out of my collar and bridle and to start resetting things so that she and Re are listed as owners to ensure that this sort [...]
—– Sunday August 16, 07:54 SLT —– We’re in the final countdown to the first phase of the plan. I’m sitting at the Forum, trembling slightly. In a little under 4 hours it will be exactly one week since I last saw her. [2009/08/09 11:42] deka Nexen leans down and kisses the front of her [...]
—– Saturday August 15, 23:06 SLT —– Final thought for the night, after another long conversation with Tara. By the way, if you can count Tara as one of your friends, than you are truly blessed. Her caring and generosity are awe inspiring. Here’s the final thought: I belong to Miss deka Nexen. Nothing has [...]
—– Saturday August 15, 20:35 SLT —– It’s now approximately 24 hours until we reach the first deadline. I’m developing whiplash from going back and forth on whether or not I want to see deka again. It’s really bothering me honestly, I don’t know what my reaction will be if I see her tomorrow. Throughout [...]
—– Saturday August 15, 06:14 SLT —– I realise this morning that I have turned one corner in my emotional separation from Miss deka. If she returns I need to be convinced that this isn’t going to happen again. I need to know that she’s not going to just abandon me for days at a [...]
—– Friday August 14, 23:32 SLT —– No sign of Miss deka, her alt or Damon still. I spent the evening with Tara, Re, Parser and later with ccia and DaddyDenial. We went to the club where Wednesdai used to dance, Ally B’s. It was the only BDSM friendly dance club any of us could [...]
—– Friday August 14, 12:36 SLT —– I haven’t seen Miss deka since Sunday morning. I’m still locked in a kneel pose from my collar, and she hasn’t logged in once since then. Damon logged in briefly on Wednesday, but I was not online at the time. I’ve sent notecards to them both and to [...]
The following postings have been written over several days. It was not published immediately because at the time I was writing it it wasn’t clear what the situation was. It still isn’t, which is still deeply troubling. I may never know what happened. I know how it looks right now and hopefully the next couple [...]
Time to see if I can actually sell a few of my Chat Enhancers. I believe that it is the most advanced RolePlay Talker/Emoter in SL (but then again, I’m biased). It’s not got quite every feature I want, but I believe it is good to go to the wider public. I’ve created a little [...]
It occurred to me this morning that I’ve got my brand-spanking new domain and nothing there. Also, it’s a domain and host that I have full control of so it just feels better to have everything live here. This is the new home for my blog, as well as the home for Corvan’s Creations. In [...]
I finally got my hands on a version of GreenLife Emerald viewer with RLV 1.20 support so I could implement the changes that RLV 1.20 provides. The biggest change is the total elimination of any delay between a chat restriction goes into place, and the Enhancer reacting to it. Previously, the Enhancer polled RLV every [...]
Miss deka has been offline since Sunday, she had said she was coming back on Sunday but I’ve not seen her since. I’m getting a little concerned and I hope everything is alright. I’ve been locked in a kneel pose ever since I last saw her, I’ve been struggling with it, if I’m locked this [...]
This is my first post on the new blog. Please let me know if there’s anything about it that you’d like to see changed whether in style or content. My goal is to get continue daily posting as much as possible. If you are coming here from a blog that I used to have on [...]
Unless something major happens, going to leave RL out. Suffice to say things aren’t great but there’s some hope they’re going to stabilise. Definitely not my best weekend in a long time, and there’s a myriad of reasons for that. I’m going to focus in on one that’s got me feeling not too great. I’ll [...]
I’m going to try really hard not to turn this blog into an exposition of what’s going on in RL. The only real reason I’m continuing to post these is because I know there are people in SL who care and want to know what’s going on. Yesterday my daughter got up in much the [...]
I’ve decided that I need to take my daughter at her word. I need to believe her that she’ll sink so low as to attempt to bargain with her mother’s well being. So tomorrow I’m going to put my job in jeopardy by working from home and spending most of the day on the phone [...]