I really need to start attaching pictures to this blog…
This morning I spent a few more hours as a table, this time tantalised by the presence of Miss sitting on the table top. She was afk at the time so all I could do was wait for her to return. When she did, around noon, it was an enormous relief to finally be able to be able to stand up from the table and sink to my knees before her.
We had a very nice chat before she had to head off, and because of a temporary shortage of computers at her house, that was the last I saw of her today. Which is not to say that she wasn’t on my mind every moment I was online. I’m sunk, done in, finished. She’s more deeply in my head than Wednesdai ever was, and she keeps digging deeper. I really hope I please her, because she is so good for me on so many levels. Last night and this morning just cemented it. Early on with Wednesdai I struggled with the whole Command Authority issue. Enigma definitely had it, though she rarely exercised it when I screwed up. Miss deka both has it in spades, but uses it at every moment, both positively and negatively. It’s definitely got me sitting up straight.
The last two nights she imposed a 10:00 curfew on me and I wasn’t sure it applied tonight given that it was a Friday. I did push it a little, logged at 10:20, but I sent her a notecard in explanation: I was investigating an item that will help her impose a curfew. Once I had the item located, I sent her the information and logged immediately. I’m actually quite nervous that I might have screwed up by taking even those 20 minutes, which again speaks to how well she asserts Her authority. We’ll see if I’m in trouble in the morning. I hope not…
Meanwhile, I’ve been getting to know a couple of the statues in the new display. They really are quite neat people, and a few more statues may be joining the display. I think it’s great, it’s a form of objectification and restraint that really isn’t possible in RL so it’s nice that people can explore their fantasies in this manner. I’m slowly learning some of what attracts them to the lifestyle (and make no mistake, for 4 and ama, this is truly a lifestyle) though I don’t think I have the strength to make that kind of permanent commitment.
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