I’m slowly getting back on track to regularly blog again. If possible, I’d like to get back to daily updates. At the very least, some short reflection on how the day went, how things are going, etc.
Today was a mostly quiet day. Miss deka was pretty tightly restricted by her Master so she kept me close as her tiger. Later in the day, after she had to log off, I decided to switch to semi-doll so I could get some practice in on my MD boots. Minor problem, it turns out that my tiger collar (I wear a second collar when I’m in tiger form) was locked and somehow RLV screwed up and allowed me to remove it.
Miss was understandably angry, and I’m not entirely sure she believes me that I was running RLV at the time. I almost never run SLV, and certainly not without asking permission first. This has happened before, where something locked is knocked off accidentally, but it always unnerves me when it happens. Regardless of how and why the locked collar was removed, Miss punished me tonight by making me into a table for the enjoyment of everyone at the Forum.
Humiliation play is not normally my cup of tea, and I’ve never been a piece of furniture before. Either way, it wasn’t a fun way to spend the evening because I knew I was spending it that way because Miss was displeased with me. The one bright spot, the only bright spot is that there was no question of my being punished for my mistake. Wednesdai only ever punished me once, and Enigma never did even once. Both of them threatened to punish me, but Miss deka does not believe in threats or warnings. I made a mistake that I knew should not have happened and I’m paying the consequences for that as I type. There have been things I didn’t know, like she doesn’t want me to buy things without her permission, I didn’t get punished for those, but something like removing a locked item is simple and obvious.
She’s getting really deep into my head, I’m astonished at how quickly and how deep she is already. I want nothing more than to please her and to be the best sub for her that I can be. It makes this punishment particularly poignant I guess because I feel like in removing that locked item I was betraying her trust a bit, something I would never, ever do deliberately.
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