It’s now the next morning and I’m still kind of floating from the day I had yesterday.
I need to keep checking back to my chat log to make sure I’ve got the ordering correct, but who really cares about what came before what?
The best part started off after just royally sucking at the weekly Forum trivia game. My team got destroyed. There’s really no other way to put it. It was pathetic. I think we lost by 20 points. It was great fun though.
Following the match, I headed back to FFF as Miss was online still and I was hoping to spend some more “getting to know you” time with her. A minor confusion on my part later and I’m following Marianne to the dressage field with four other ponies! At the time, I thought Miss Enigma had asked Marianne to bring me down, oops. My mistake turned into one of the most enjoyable training exercises I’ve had so far. Marianne had a peak of seven ponies all around the dressage field and she turned it into an impromptu precision walking exercise with all of us walking the outside of the field. From time to time she’d call out for different ponies to enter the field and either walk the circle or the figure-eight. Keeping from running each other over was a real challenge, as was fighting the occasional bursts of lag we were inducing. As we were heading over, Marianne said something about ponies being “weapons of sim destruction”
A few of the ponies dropped out or crashed out, which eventually whittled our numbers down to three. At this point Marianne turned it into a dressage training for the ponies and for Enigma who joined the half dozen or so observers while we were all walking. Dressage is one of those things that can really show off how wel a pony and his trainer are in sync with each other. It’s all about style and grace and precision. I did pretty reasonably, though the backwards line still gives me trouble, I can never quite tell when I’ve reached the end of the line before I pass it.
Once dressage practice broke up, Enigma took me on a tour of some steeple courses she knows off-sim, and I did a credible job I think.
There is a grid-wide easter egg hunt going on right now and we decided to meet up a little later and go hunting together. This marked the first time in about 10 days that I’d been out of tack for any appreciable time. It felt really strange! I didn’t hear my hooves as I walked, my hands were sticking out all over the place, it just felt unnatural at first. Once we got to the hunting I didn’t notice so much, but it sure felt good to be back in tack later on.
We got maybe half a dozen of the eggs, some were fiendishly difficult to find, and overall had fun. The shops that the hunt takes you through are a wide variety of places. I’m pretty sure that Miss bought something at one of the shops so it’s also turning out to be a nice way to get to know her tastes without badgering her.
Later on we met up with Aeris who was practicing on a race course. Miss Engima and I took turns being pulled around the course by Aeris. I just realised that that was the first time ever I’d been pulled by a pony rather than the other way around! It was a lot of fun, but I think Aeris was getting frustrated as her times kept increasing. There’s some turns that are really hard to negotiate at full speed and she was fighting lag as well which didn’t help.
Miss asked if I’d like to give it a try, which of course I was itching to do, and I took her and Aeris out for a few laps. I didn’t mean to show up Aeris, I really didn’t, but my times were quite a bit better than hers. Miss was really proud of how I did which made me glow a bit. At every stage, with the sole exception of getting better at emoting as a pony, everything just seems to be coming naturally. I’ve not felt anything quite like it before, it’s almost like… I don’t know, almost like it was meant to be.
It’s funny too, I’m such a bondage slut, and yet I’m not really terribly restrained in pony gear. Sure, I have my bit in almost non-stop (I’m only taking it out now when I visit the Forum), and there’s plenty of options for restraints, a number of ponies use the same arm binder I have, and one of my hoof sets includes options for hobbling. Yet I’m finding that I’m getting that same sense of restrained freedom being in tack that I had a few times when Wednesdai had me all trussed up for extended periods. I’m almost tempted to ask Miss to let me take it to the next level up, moving to a strict training regime like Chrissy is about to begin.
Strict training is when a pony is locked into their gear 24/7. They don’t leave their stall unless accompanied by a trainer and they don’t leave the sim. It sounds like an amazingly immersive experience but I go back and forth about whether I’d gain anything significant over how life is now. I’m in tack 24/7 except on Miss’s instructions. I rarely leave the sim, since joining FFF I don’t think I’ve gone anywhere else except to the Forum and to a few pony shops (still looking for the ultimate set of gear…). So what’s the real difference between that and Strict Training? I guess it’s mostly the choice thing. I can choose to wait in my stall for a trainer to be free, or in the paddock, or I can pop over to the Forum. Miss can (and may some day, who knows) instruct me to remain at the Farm, she can tie my reins to a post in my stall guaranteeing that I can’t go wandering. These last two options remove choices from me which of course is a big piece of the whole BDSM dynamic.
I guess when it comes down to it, I’m happy enough knowing that if She feels it necessary to restrict me she will. Until then, I’m just not going to worry about it.
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Smiles whimsically…in some ways I wish I had the guts to read this back then, I might have know you wanted to go into strict training, though I never was very happy about the idea. You never did express it to me it was something you wanted, so I never knew. Of course, I was too afraid I would jinx the whole thing if I read your blog, ironically enough. I tryied very hard to make you and CHrissy happy all along. E
July 15, 2009 at 03:12